It's has been two and half months after I have quit my previous job and stay at home. My life only accompanied by eat, cook, sleep, play and forex in this period but did nothing. I have been long time didn't relax myself in such a way that I have no need to bother or worry anything since I have started to work when I studied form 2.
I came from a normal, yet slightly low-income family as compare to others, when my dad served as the only economic support in our family when I was a child. We 3 siblings never demand for excess toys or clothes as we know that we were not born as rich children. Perhaps, understanding and mature thinking were the priority for us when we step in the real society in teenage where environment culture people.
Some times I was quite fed up for this kind of life that I have to busy turning myself between studying and working, and yet to get a balance point between them. I can't let my studies gone as the primary responsibility for me is studying instead of working. But, I can't quit my job also, ever it's just a part-time as I need it to support for my daily expenses where I didn't request pocket money from my family. Think positively that it's was a good way for me in managing my owned account as I spend what I earn!
It's quite a number of job that I have worked for it when I refreshed my memory in writing this post. I have been working as Chinese restaurant waitress, promoter for various products (hair care survey, slimming voucher, Sunkist juice, Sunsilk shampoo, Marigold fruit juice, Vitagen, child's clothes, baby chair & bed, Biore make-up remover, Clear shampoo, Vaseline body lotion, Hada Labo facial clean and so on), Old Town waitress, hawker, and primary school temporary teacher. There were always non-stop working that I kept on accepting the job offer from my agents and changed it since it were just merely part-time nature.
The study cum work life continued ever at my last semester when I have to prepare for my final year project and attended class (where I missed it at previous sem). I was exhausted some times that I have to rushed between it but have no choice. It's really trained me well in handling multiple tasks at the same time!
My part-time job life ended when I got the offer for my first official job at IBM. I entered the company as normal staff instead of intern as my internship fall on the last sem of my studies and I no need to go back campus after it. This is my first official and yet, can be considered as full time job in my life where I met my colleagues and friends at here. I ended my part-time job that time as I just wanna to have some times for myself. But I do feel like want to work for it also some times when I shopping in mall. It's just the feeling that I want but I won't as my salary was sufficient for my life.
I have put into a long consideration when I decided to tender my resign letter. The thought has been turning in my mind for several months actually, just I has lack of courage to realize it. I has been thinking a lot of it but I didn't put it into action, perhaps I have familiar the current condition that time and afraid of any changes. I fear that I can't get a satisfied job after I quit. I fear that I have get any offer at Cyberjaya here as I love everything at here. I fear that I will have nothing to do and waste my time. In fact, I have no financial burden at all, neither car loan nor housing load or family commitment, so I have nothing to fear actually! And my saving can support me sufficiently without changing my current living standard ever I didn't have any single income in future. BUT, I just hesitated to step out for it.
I have been struggling for my indecision since April and finally, I tender my resignation letter at July. It was inspired by my colleagues when she tender her letter without hesitating, and one of my senior who advice me a lot.
Everyone has to be responsible to their owned life not others. We have to put in deep consideration before we step ahead for any decision that could change our life. Maybe we will feel guilty today as we resign because of our responsibility towards our work, but who will feel guilty for dragging us remain at some place that was not suitable for us actually and only realize it in future? Manager? CEO? Unfortunately, neither one of them nor ever everyone in this world, but YOURSELF. Manger might be happy today if we take back our resignation because she/he no need to bother about any replacement and work progress. But, will she/he take over the responsible in guaranteeing our future life? It will be barely very less of them will and can do it. We can't depend others but ourselves, and yet it is a cruel world that hiding behind this fancy society. We make the decision and we take the responsible for it, either success or fail, no one can be blamed but ourselves.
It was really a tough decision for me to determine whether stay or left, and yet I choose the behind finally.
Today is my first day in joining my new job, which is the second official job in my life. Hope that it will be fine everything~
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